【Journals】12/25/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Journey.」

"I won't come back anymore,
I'm gonna rock my life and my love for you."



High Quality Version

「Cgrismas bunny.」

"Can you hear me?
Can you see me?
I'm Christmas Bunny,
the gorgeous delusion."

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祝大家佳節愉快，
我元旦很不幸的必須在營區內過，
實在是相當鬱悶。

【Journals】12/18/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Partners.」

"Let's do it!"




High Quality Version

「Ample.」

"I still have a lot of time to spare, don't worry."

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留守完後一次放了四天假，
但其實這樣一點也不有趣。
要不是情非得以，
我絕對會選擇排週一、二休假。

可惜這次回來後的重點作品是R-18，
所以不方便放在這，
雖然我個人是覺得並不怎麼煽情就是了，
不過我發現我的觀感已經不合於常識，
畫圖畫久了或多或少都會有這種問題。

【Poetry】睏倦

欠缺陽光的日子
灰濛濛
冷冷清清
在萬籟俱寂當中
彷彿聽見
枕邊的心跳聲

昏暗的意識
搖搖 擺擺
只記得暈厥前
你的喘息
如同百米賽跑
高昂 急促

從來就沒有
傳達給你
但
也從來沒有
忘記與你
徹夜共舞
直至
睏倦入睡

寒風徐徐的季節
孤處的屋簷下
我慢慢閉上眼

【Poetry】偏見

四季的新綠
由淺至深
映照
殘破不堪的
斑斕盡失的
生氣全無的
你

彷彿
從世界中
剝離
成為剪影
成為負片
成為
你

穿過人群
走過喧囂
踏過芸芸眾生
不沾絲毫
庸俗 豔麗
愚鈍 盲目
傲於自身兩極
非黑則白
「原則」
你說
「本性」
我想

並不會
無聊 乏味
縱使苦澀
因為
你

【Poetry】宇宙通信

稜鏡四散輝耀
星光閃爍 幽遠漆暗
從無限距離的更深處
傳來告別的信息

嗶嗶作響
電子聲不絕於耳
沙沙嘈雜
收訊不良的不耐
反反覆覆之間
文字即是情緒
符號即是人格
透明
也可以重現
充塞心室的
鮮紅

真空管
半導體
陰極線
屬於明日的真實
提早送達

火箭發射
留下
濃稠到不可化解的
冉冉白雲
讓我想起
某時某夜
目送離別

電線桿間
牽起長長的羈絆
電波塔上
發出重重的思念
所有的功能
都與往昔的景色
構成彼此

手機
電話
傳真機
宇宙悄悄說出
你也默默寫下
內容
毫無章法 了無新意
因為
記憶體不足

時間過後時間過後
我知道
銀河某處
通信中

【Journals】11/27/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Universal Inc.」

"The world is just a great show,
which we keep watching yet performing."



High Quality Version

「Duel.」

"Show-hand."

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無念無想，
在蒸氣之中喃喃自語，
寒冬的日子總是特別晦澀。
正是因為沒有未來，
所以時間也不存在。

【Journals】11/20/2011誌

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「Only love you.」

"The conversation between you and I is a sweet poison,
it hurt me so much but also immersed me in lovely sensation.
Since you started to speak to me, I have only been able to love you."



High Quality Version

「Zenha, the Assassin.」

"Now you see me, now you don't!"



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「Diagnosis.」

"I can't escape from here,
because I've found the hospital is an epitome of the world."

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在失去的同時，
其實早已得到了「失去」本身。
如果能理解虛數的世界，
那麼即使成為零，
也能再次從一開始。

【Journals】11/6/2011誌

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「Biting.」

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"The sweet juice passed through my dry throat,
aroused the feelings of life and the sense of beauty."

從一開始；至零終末，
話語之間構成的日常，
不為流言蜚語所剝蝕。
在永遠不變的時間中，
被刻劃成那愛的形狀，
如同花果含苞而待放，
結果早已長存於起點。

【Journals】10/30/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Gestation.」

"I want to write a letter to you,
but there is no sentence could express my feelings.
So I just keep waiting,
waiting for your next letter, and next, and next."



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「Helheim.」

"My heart has belonged to you,
so I'll be where you are, no matter how."

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在逐漸流逝的時光裡，
或許存在著些恆久不變的碎片，
倚靠著它們，
我們得以如同植物般安寧生長，
亦走向沒有路標的未來。

【Journals】10/10/2011誌

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「Sence of domination.」



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「I'm full of you.」

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五天的假期馬上就過去了，
真是相當缺乏真實感。

【Journals】9/25/2011誌

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「Fruit milk.」



High Quality Version

「Our ways.」

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重感冒當中，還斷斷續續的在發燒。
但接下來這週還要留守啊，
這樣的身體狀況讓我非常擔心，
更何況這週算是頗忙的。
看能不能去醫護所休息或是請病假了，
實在是不舒服到了極點。

【Journals】9/12/2011誌

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「With you.」

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"You always treat me like a prostitute,
and trample me all night.
But I know,
I can hear your heartbeat, frail and disturbed.
Don't feel sorry baby,
if I'm the only one who can love you,
I'll be with you forever."

等一下就要收假回營了，
下次回來又是六天後。
日子一天一天的過去，
依然乏味的讓人毫無真實感。

【Journals】9/5/2011誌

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「Main course & dessert.」

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"To break the chaos in my life,
I've tried to go into the deep deep chasm.
Thus I won't be alone anymore.

Show me the way to calmness,
and ease my pain of spirit,
by the heat of your body.
...If you have.

No matter who you are,
it doesn't really matter,
because there is no one actually,
but there is everyone as well.

The solitary murmur."

三天的連假又要結束了，
不過接著也是個三天連假，
九月算是能好好的休息了。

最近手感跟靈感都很缺乏，
果然當兵對創作者來說是個障礙啊。

【Journals】8/28/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Siren's hill.」

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"Oh, my dear,
where are you from?
And where are you going?
Is my song stale?
Or my heart broke?
Tell me, tell me."

【Journals】8/14/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Feline youth.」

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"Don't stare at me like that."

某些時期在記憶中所留下的痕跡特別地深，
讓人在回想之時，不只是想起事件本身，
亦感受到了當時的情緒與態度。
生命會將我們領向何方呢？
在歲月剝蝕的當下，是否也會成為一道刻痕？
當我們往前望去，
就更應該回頭去擁抱那些構成當下的過去。

【Poetry】愉快犯

晚安

輕快地三拍子
踏在漫漫長夜的眼瞼上
將世界一分為二
在黎明到來之前
城市的心臟開始鼓噪

安全島
人孔蓋
電線桿
既非特定的地點
也非隨機的抽選
任憑腦內月光的昇起
照耀今晚的初演

帕夫洛夫的狗
泊泊鮮紅是分泌唾液的信號燈
桑戴克的貓
反覆嘗試通往銹蝕道路的方法
當榔頭不用來敲釘子
流下口水

玫瑰看著蒼蠅
如今兩者疏途同歸
共臥在打破寧靜的鳴笛聲下
將苦果釀成了蜜酒

華爾滋
圓舞曲
分離的世界一拍即合
晝日的瞳孔擴大著
血脈逐漸
褪去

早安

【Poetry】浸潤

咚

咕嚕
咕嚕

滴滴
答答

淅瀝
淅瀝

這座城
正下著
羞恥心

水中
霧中
雨之中
兩人的繭
不斷地
緊縮
包覆

我說你
何不妨
游過岸

嘩啦
嘩啦

啪嘰
啪嘰

噗吱
噗吱

咚

【Journals】8/2/2011誌

High Quality Version

「What you choose.」

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"Do what you do;
take what you take.
This is all caused by you,
just for the negligible world.
So, I DON'T CARE."

【Journals】7/23/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Taboo.」

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"Though it is so real deservedly,
we can't tell anyone about its existence."

【Journals】7/9/2011誌

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「On the hill.」

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"So we are here together."

【Journals】7/3/2011誌

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「Spoil.」

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"Let's try some different!"

【Journals】6/19/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Touch.」

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"Oh, I know you want to take me to somewhere so much,
and I'm very willing to let you do that,
unless there isn't any crime.
Innocence doesn't mean anything but suppression,
that doesn't match our incurable love."

【Poetry】氣息

在那裡
龍舌蘭
佇立著
而我總是
不斷等待
等待
等待他
與我同行

你的氣息飄香
街口的咖啡廳
散發相同印象
每每當我走過
都不由自主地
想起目光投注的時刻

學校的鐘聲
青春的制服
既惱人
又甜美
習以為常的十字路
讓我們從起點開始
亦使我們迎向終點

你一直是
望著遠方
獨自撒落
冉冉芬芳
而我總是
不斷等待
期盼渴望
水月鏡花

我說
其實是沒有的吧
只是
從花朵所衍生的
夢囈
倘若能成為故事
亦是
結局未名的癡話
大概

就讓我依靠
你的吞吐而活
充滿虛無的肺葉
名為戀慕的渾濁
我漸漸消融

在那裡
龍舌蘭
佇立著

你的氣息飄香

【Poetry】匿名掛號

那些令人
亟欲傾訴的話語
總是那樣
拉拉
扯扯
將心底深處
既柔軟
又堅實
的
某種情緒
撕裂成灰白的刺激
正如同
注射筒的尖端

可能是因為
想要與你產生聯繫
一種足以緊緊綑綁彼此
窒息的蛛網
這裡將會是終點
我
癡心妄想

所以說
併著影子走吧
走在就連眼角餘光
都無法看透的
花朵偽裝
百分之百的掩蔽盛開

泫然欲泣
腦內啡引起的飄然感
你的身體
你的舉止
你的聲聲響響
誘惑著我
前去訴說

那些令人
亟欲傾訴的話語
一直以來
都僅僅是
酒精中的標本
正因為如此
才得以
不斷注射

請回頭看著我
因為
我總是看著你

公車
玄關
地下道

寢室
浴室
起居室

吶
請看著我

【Journals】6/12/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Narcissism.」

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"Please don't turn your head,
just keep your eyes on me.
That's the only way which can make me high."

【Journals】6/5/2011誌

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「Stubborn.」

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"I can't slump now, the right time hasn't come yet."

I was so busy last week, I even have got fever caused by Tonsillitis.
Though I was sick and very uncomfortable,
I still had to do lots of decorations and artworks, for a big celebration.
That was a really disaster.

Generally, compulsory soldiers only have to work from 6:00 to 18:00,
but I have to start my works from 6:00 to 22:00 EVERYDAY,
the works including sweep, sending documents, printing and arranging information,
preparing food from restaurants, taking photos, doing artworks and even other works.
This is because there are 8 officers I need to serve,
and I have only one partner, but he doesn't have any art technique,
so I have to do all the artworks.

I hope there won't be any celebration next week.

【Journals】5/29/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Iron maiden.」

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"Frigid skin, freezing bone, cool vision but burning heart."

【Journals】5/25/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Surrender.」

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"Well, I don't care the little failure now,
I'll take all victories I should own next time."

【Journals】5/23/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Toleration.」

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"If I could choose,
I don't want to stand my messy life anymore.
Please don't say that I'm so pessimistic,
because no one can run away from the cruel seasons.
All the days just turn round and round,
kill me with the edge of time."

【Journals】5/22/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Ponder.」

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"If you were sure, I would not be sure;
if I was sure, you should just be quiet."

Finally, I've finished my army training, now I can enjoy my vacation until 5/26.
Fortunately I'll be sent to a CG unit in aviation headquarters, I was trying so hard to get vacancy.
So I don't have to do those battle training anymore, I'll be able to just face the computer,
say good bye to shooting training, march, operations training and all the hateful dirty courses.

【Journals】5/1/2011誌

High Quality Version

「To remember.」

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"I don't want to be abandoned by the world,
so I try my best to remember everything in my life.
Now, I can feel my heart is full of passion, love and fire,
with all in my memory."

I have a short vacation about two days,
after this vacation I still have 18 days training in army,
and I'll start my 10 months army life after the training.
Actully it's quite easy to be a soldier in our country,
it also means that our army is very useless.

And I have a big chance to do subsitute service rather than normal army service,
because it seems that I have a heart disease(VPC).
So maybe I can leave the army on 5/5, after I receive my inspection report,
of course, I hope so.

【Journals】4/20/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Echo.」

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"I don't know,
I'm not sure where the highway will bring us to,
but I see the vapidness in your collapsed pupils.
Just enjoy the moment when we get the whole world,
without any fiction, this is what I'm chasing for you.
I don't really care about our future,
running is more important than thinking,
I just want to keep speeding with you,
until the day comes."

This is my last artwork before I start my one-year army life,
I hope you'll enjoy it.

【Journals】4/19/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Alibi.」

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更在意像是雲的變化這一類的事情。

【Journals】4/18/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Fertile.」

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事實進行與否，
那並不重要。
重要的是進行的動機。

【Journals】4/17/2011誌

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「Bathroom.」

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"Just trying to cleanse my filth and guilt."

【Journals】4/16/2011誌

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「Puberty.」

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"I hope I could receive a letter from someone someday."

【Journals】4/15/2011誌

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「Domino city.」

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"It fell like it's just a simple game."

【Journals】4/14/2011誌

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「Coaction.」

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"Ok, let's try this out."

【Journals】4/13/2011誌

High Quality Version

「眼藥酸。」

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"I didn't drop eyewash into my eye,
but I still hope you would look at me."

【Journals】4/12/2011誌

High Quality Version

「If there was you.」

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"Though I'm so useless and changeless,
I can pass anything with you."

【Poetry】逃避論

在缺乏星光的落日之間
夢見某種
某種似曾相識的未知
突然醒覺便消逝於漆黑中的未知
像是對妄執的嘲笑般
四處流蕩

想要成為某種
從成為的本身開始成為
從某種的反側開始成為
成為某種被成為的某種

緣起於
未知境界的渴求
無人之地的期望
被世界放逐的流水席
只是想更加地逃離
你
的視線

用繭絲層層包裹
落向深淵
注視著汝的側容
從此長眠昏厥

在缺乏星光的落日之間
夢見某種

【Journals】4/11/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Big bear.」

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我們總是知道的，
或許會逝去的那些事物。

【Journals】4/10/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Lost maid.」

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三角形的坐騎，
幾何學的交通號誌，
連環交錯。

【Journals】4/9/2011誌

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「Fork.」

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"Let's take some dessert!"

【Journals】4/8/2011誌

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「Someday.」

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All and all.

【Journals】4/7/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Cross the Windows.」

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"I don't know what there was,
but I know there's something I lost."

【Journals】4/6/2011誌

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「落葉歸根。」

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【Journals】4/5/2011誌

High Quality Version

「Mometsu Bellard.」

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↑Commission artwork.

植物植物的植物，
好想成為植物。

【Journals】4/4/2011誌

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「Position.」

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在四月二十一日當天，
同時是我生日的這天，
我必須去為國家效力大約一年。
看到徵集令時真讓我不知道該說什麼，
不過這至少代表明年生日不用在軍中過。

對我來說最為不幸的即是必須中止委託，
其實這也是我一直沒將委託擴大營運的原因，
畢竟要在服役結束後才能夠不中斷的經營。

另一點就是冥桃都每日更新的長跑也就會在那天結束，很可惜沒辦法累積到1600天，遺憾之事。

總之就是這樣子囉。

【Journals】4/3/2011誌

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「Inferiority.」

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"Please leave me along forever."